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The one in the passenger seat got sick right there in the restaurant. It was during another meeting with the boss, this one about a new campaign for a new client, something that was important to the boss but not to the one in the passenger seat, although he is good at seeming interested, invested. The one in the passenger seat is adept at feigning team spirit. He will always use the words we or us or our when discussing company business. He is always punctual, courteous. He never complains. The boss considers him his best employee, the most reliable and most dedicated. He is none of these things. He is good at his job, or rather, he is competent, fair, but he never excels at anything, his work is always acceptable and on time, yes, his assigned task or tasks, whatever is assigned to him, he does it, always, but he rarely shows initiative, rarely goes any extra miles. He is wholly without ambition. He has never sought a promotion or raise. He shows up, he does what is required, he leaves. He is there. That’s how he was, too, in the restaurant when he got sick. He didn’t tell anyone he wasn’t feeling well, didn’t mention it afterward, either. The one in the passenger seat knew something was wrong shortly after his last bite of the chicken salad sandwich. He could feel something inside himself, in his innards, something moving itself around, looking for a way out. So what he did was excuse himself to go do what he had to in the rest room. He rose up from the table, clutched the napkin placed on his lap, folded it, laid it down on his chair and said, Pardon me, please. No one paid attention to him as he said this or as he left the table. There was no urgency involved, judging by his demeanor, though he wasted no time walking directly to the rest room. Once there, he acted accordingly and finished without drawing any attention to himself. There were two other men in the rest room, though neither was aware of what was happening in the first stall. He thought this episode was a sign of his good health, of his improving health, that his body so quickly rejected what wasn’t good for him. Later, he returned to the table, but skipped dessert.

Neither is keen on eating lunch today, but both realize they have no choice. More than that, though, more than worrying about food poisoning, neither wants the new account and both are hoping the other gets it.

The two of them never interact at work. When they see each other in the hallway or lobby they will sometimes nod. The one in the passenger seat is certain the one in the driver’s seat must think this lack of interaction is related to what happened in the supply closet. The one in the passenger seat is fine with the other one thinking this.

The one who says that pussy is not pussy does not like to hold anyone’s hand. Once he had dinner with his mother’s neighbor. His mother’s neighbor worked as a nurse, was handsome around the face, save some old pockmarks and acne scars, and shaped like a field hockey player. The mother arranged for the outing, said the nurse was perfectly suitable, and instructed her son to pick up the neighbor and walk her to the restaurant. He did this. At dinner, they discussed her job, her background, her plans for the future. He shared nothing of himself, instead asking questions and smiling when he thought it appropriate. On the walk home, she slipped her hand in his. She did this casually. There was no call for such an action, no reason for it. There was nothing about his body language or demeanor or anything he may’ve said during dinner that would’ve indicated such a thing would be welcomed. He always sweats when he comes in contact with another person. He sweats, too, whenever he eats or is active for more than two minutes. Every day, he has to change out of his shirt after lunch. He keeps five freshly laundered shirts behind the door in his office. He does not like going to a doctor but promises to do so whenever he talks on the phone with his mother. His mother worries about him and is correct in doing so.

The walk home with the neighbor was a long one. Still clutching his hand, she prattled on about one of the doctors at work, remarking that one was a letch. The one in the passenger seat said every so often, That’s terrible. He also said once or twice, People are different. He wanted to talk about the one who says that pussy is pussy, what he saw in the supply closet. He wanted to know what could be done about it, how he should proceed.

The one in the passenger seat now says, There are different kinds.